Bringin' Tha H.E.A.T.

As a youngsta and as a young man I wished, begged and pleaded "Why can't I have just a 'normal' life?". As though I had the slightest idea what a "normal" life even looked like. But, I will say as I peeked over into other peoples lives (definitely not my family) it seemed as though they were living a better life then me. And since my childhood was filled with nightmares...yeah, other peoples lives seemed better.

Unfortunately, because my childhood was riddled with sufferings and unwanted experiences, I somehow suppressed a lot of memories: more good than bad memories. It's like, when I stop to think back upon days gone by I find myself digging deep for the good memories, digging through the bad ones that are easily triggered. Now...!side note!...Jesus Christ has delivered me from the pain and hurt of my past...He has show me His grace, mercy and deliverance from the sting of it all, yet the scares remain to remind me and others of all that God is able to see a person through. But what has been revealed to me by The Holy Spirit is that in my mental repression, I also suppressed pieces of who I am, what God is using those pieces for and making me to be.

So...I take a definitive stand in God through Jesus Christ by the power of The Holy Spirit. A stand that says, "I will only be defined by He who created me, not by the pains of my past!" I will trust the Lord with the truths of the "hand that was dealt me" and I'll play my cards assertively and wisely! I will not make camp in the wilderness of ignorance but will climb the mountain of hope and take refuge in the higher ground. God is a victor and in Him is all victory...in Him I abide and dwell!